As I expected, it's been a while since I managed to sit down and write.  It's been a while since I've managed to do quite a few things to be honest. 

First though I want to take my hat off to any single parents with newborns.  I don't know how you do it.  This Friday Lisa and I switched diaper duties.  She has been watching Quinlan through the nights so I can get a good night sleep.  Which works well in the long run.  She can't go anywhere because of the c-section and I have to be up at six or thereabouts to train clients.  And it's not as if I've got a desk job and can just go through the motions. 

So Friday night he and I managed about 3 hours sleep.....and the longest period was from 4 to 5:15.  Saturday was pretty much the same.  Of course when Lisa is on night  duty she gets a little better sleep than I do because she is able to sleep through noises.  Unlike yours truly.  I am the lightest sleeper.  So light that I can wake up to the cat walking around the bedroom!!!  So of course the cat isn't allowed in the bedroom.  So part of my sleep deprivation is because of my sleeping skills - or lack thereof.

So as I was 'being in the moment' with my son I could only think about single parents out there.  Because I knew that as soon as the sun came up and Lisa had had a good 8 hours interrupted sleep I was going to be able to wake her and get some zzzzzzzzzzz's of my own.  Some people aren't that fortunate though.  How do they do it?  Oopsss...got to go - poopy diaper sounds emitting from my progeny!!!!

Phew.....LIsa and I have been dodging bullets all day long with regards our little one.....and then I took one!!!  We decided to try and change formula on him as he was spitting up a little with what we were giving him....oh boy was that a mistake....he splattered about 4 ounces of lunch all over me, the sofa, the floor....scary moment.  Which pretty much was the dot on the exclamation point regarding my observation as to single moms and how do they cope!!

And then there's my observation about habits.  I know quite a few people take umbrage at my observation that we do very little thinking throughout the day.  I'd like to bet that 98% of our actions are derivatives of habits that we've formed over time.  I know when I say that most people look at me like I'm from another planet!  But after Quinlan being born I'm even more convinced.  I'd love to say that I consciously go about my day and think things through until I have a decision made.  If only.  I do what I do because, well I do!!  Up at 6 or so, make the coffee, read the paper, make breakfast, head to work, train my clients, come home make a healthy lunch, work on my businesses, go back to the gym train some clients, come home, make dinner and visit with Lisa.  That was PQ pre Quinlan.  Now my 'habits' are get up and take him from Lisa and change and feed him and play with him until I go to the gym.  etc.etc.etc.  My day is nothing more than a litany of habits....some good, some not so and some bad.....

So the big question is why would I go on about something like that?  Partially because I can.....and partially because of a conversation I had yesterday with a good friend.  When I talked about my observation she agreed when it came to exercise in the morning.  It's now become a habit.  And that's what I'd classify as a good habit.  She then went on to talk about planning to do things in the evening and not getting around to them.  And that's where we came to something of an impasse. 

It's my opinion that we have a habit of creating intentions that we clearly aren't going to be able to fulfill.  I say I'm going to do this.  I say I'm going to complete that.  And all along it's merely words coming  out of my mouth.  The probabilty of me following through is minimal but I like to be bale to say "I'm going to blah blah blah....."  And that in of itself is nothing more than a bad habit that I have. 

And so I guess my desire is to mimimize my bad habits and ameliorate my good ones.....